Walks on the wild side

Yet another apology, apparently "I am not being brave, I am just getting on with it" and "it isn't my illness and your lack of sleep making you grumpy, you were a miserable git before my diagnoses". I think the patient is beginning to recover from her operation. Don't you just love northern women.

Well Tracey's mum left on Friday to a flood of tears, totally unexpected!! We have been left to our own devices for a few days before the next visitor, David, Tracey's dad arrives, which he did this afternoon. All of Bren's household procedures have been put in place, the washing up, cooking and cleaning are all being done to order and by the end of the weekend most of the procedures have been completely ignored. We are back to blissful disorder. A large slice of chaos is good for the Tinsley household (yes it is Brenda). I just wish someone would do the washing up without being shouted at.

Livi safely left on Saturday and is now in Newquay. I can report that I didn't get out of bed till 10:00 on Sunday which has made me feel a lot better. I spent both days of the weekend filling emptying and refilling the pool after a spectacularly bad attempt at levelling the ground resulted in a number of sharp stones under the pool hurting my feet and desperately needing to be removed. I really need to get Adam out for a father son thing as he is missing out on a lot of fun at the moment. Perhaps an aimless cycle is in order.

The question is, is sleep the cure to all of my anger. I think not, but it is a good start. I am still having problems with people, not the sort who sit down and listen too my stories. I love telling stories so those who listen are great. No it's the ones who want me to listen to their stories are the problem, IT'S MY TURN. The ones who bring me problems are also a nuisance. Of course the ones who bring me the most problems are at work. It's not their fault, problems are what I am there to deal with. It's just that they are an irritation. A pox on your problems I say. No wonder Chris is protecting me (a bit) from people at the moment.

One of the bonuses of this is that I have begun to take my lunch hour on my own, because I really don't want to talk to anyone. This is not meant to reflect badly on the people I normally lunch with, I just need some space during the day. Time to breathe. Anyway today I walked around Southwick country park in the beautiful sunshine, listening to my Ipod and, as a bonus managed to take a few pictures of the wildlife which I will share with you.

The first and best picture was of a huge dragonfly which landed on a bush in front of me.

I also managed to take a picture of a butterfly and some tadpoles (not together).

If anyone has a clue what type of dragonfly or butterfly they are I would be grateful to find out. I am particularly please that these were taken from my phone.

The walk and time spent away from people, up to a point does me lots of good, so may be next time I will bring the bigger and better camera. Expect bigger and better pictures.

Anyway as I said this has all made me feel a bit better about Tracey, me and life in general. You could say it has invigorated my soul, well you could if I wasn't an atheist. No soul in this boy, just lots and lots of love for my wife and family (and friends).

There is almost a sense of normality if it wasn't for the woman doing Morecambe and Wise imitations in front of the mirror and the next visit to the clinic hanging over us tomorrow. As I have said previously test, diagnose, treatment. We will always be waiting for one of those three.

So we move on, I know the sense of normality is temporary, but I am enjoying it while it lasts.

Chris x