How are we?

My reason for starting this blog was to keep people up to date with how the family are coping with Tracey's cancer. Sometimes I go a bit off piste and indulge myself and sometimes I try and let out all the madness. Today is a bit of a madness day.

Tracey is feeling bad, the chemo is horrible, nasty, poisonous stuff. Her throat is bad, sore, painful. We all hate to see her in this way and I am sure she hates it even more. I would like to see her feeling better.

I have lots of trouble getting my head round it, the painful cure. It's a little bit like when you were young, "take your medicine, it tastes bad but it will make you better" only x 10000 worst. We will make you feel vile but you will get better. And she will, this time next year we will be wondering about the fuss. I shall make her eat one of my one pot wonders to reminder of how bad it was.

At home things are getting slightly chaotic. It's the new term and time to start ferrying the kids back and forth. This was always going to be a problem. Livi has to get to work, I know she can walk but this is not an option at 10 and 11 at night. Adam has to go to Futsal and Vaughan to rugby. Tuesday is particularly bad, Futsal 6:30 to 7:30, Rugby 7:00 to 8:30, not compatible, normally we would do it together but now other people will help. Never forget the friend network.

And then there is school and college. The taking is not too bad, but now the buses have been changed I can't just give the boys cash to get home, I think I shall have to lean on work a lot to give me a bit more leeway. Of course Brenda coming back will help a lot, but she is not back till 17th September. Lots and lots of driving for me. I have make sure I don't let it grind me down.

How are the boys and girl coping? Livi is dramatic when she needs to be, for effect she does the emotion very well and then she does something brilliant just to shock you. Vaughan is as dry as a dessert and the funniest thing on two legs, he keeps his emotions under control but every now and again you can see him giving his mum a look. Adam is still mostly our little boy and appears to have it all going over his head but sometimes you can feel his anger, he is just a little more clingy than normal.

We have been told that this may happen with each chemo or that it may be just a one off. I hope it doesn't happen again.

Anyway I have the washing to do, Chris's work is never done, sometimes it is rarely started.

Must go.

Chris x